Zutto Mae kara Joshi deshita (ずっと前から女子でした) Review
Because She's a Girl
When I get nostalgic, elementary school inevitably comes to mind.
Because back then I felt like an ACG protagonist.
People like to reminisce about when they were hot shit, not when they were a dumbass—totally understandable. But my so-called “protagonist” days weren’t about going to Beijing for some “X-Fusion” to brag about “this is so fucking insane,” or riding a bike to get Heytea and chafing my ass, or constantly tearing down laptops and fiddling with Raspberry Pi while saying “how how how amazing I am” in a Shonan accent, or juggling a female teacher, a pigeon girl, and a student I met in Japanese class. It was just that in elementary school my grades were okay, my looks were okay, my conversation was okay—enough that some girls would voluntarily get close to me.
But what does an elementary school “protagonist” actually get? You don’t know shit in elementary school, and I didn’t either.
I interacted with plenty of girls in elementary school. That feeling was different from interacting with women now. Girls back then were pretty fierce and badass—basically, they frequently dominated the boys.
Yes, dominated. Not a metaphor, not a figure of speech—literally dominated.
I used to wonder: teachers would tell boys to go easy on girls, saying they’re the weaker sex. But aside from a tiny minority of crybaby girls who actually fit that, most girls were tougher than the boys, even physically stronger.
As a kid I was the best long-distance runner. I don’t even know if it was talent—I’d often find nobody behind me and I wasn’t even trying that hard. Won races easily. Then in third grade I got fat and could never run first again, ended up last—but that’s another story.
In the limited three years I competed in long-distance races, the girl in second place was always the same. She was second not just in running but often in academics too, and she’d randomly provoke me saying she’d beat me.
Honestly, at first I didn’t even think of her as a girl. How could she be? She talked like a dude… I mean, she was so macho, so competitive, so physically strong, and never had long hair—always short. Tell me, how is that a girl? I’d believe you if you said she was a guy. She was more of a man than most guys.
But time passed, we grew up, and those fierce “girls” gradually grew out their hair, put on skirts, and sprouted a pair of buns on their chests.
In college, out of boredom, I went to an elementary school reunion. Didn’t recognize most people, but I saw a lot of beauties.
Yes, actual beauties—you’d never guess they were the ones who used to chase boys and beat them up. Now they all looked so fragile, speaking softly.
I don’t really know the reason. Since then I’ve made a point of observing little girls—not a crime, just curiosity-driven observation.
“Why is there such a huge gap between little girls and adult women?”
On the famous fiction site zhihu there’s this not-so-reliable explanation: women are naturally physically stronger than men in various aspects, but because they need to bear children, menstruation and other physiological factors put a big limit on their physical abilities—like being shackled, unable to fully exert themselves—so they get weaker as they grow up…
Whether that’s scientific is debatable, but it sounds plausible.
Well, men and women are different. Little girls might dominate you when you’re young, but in the end you’re the one who gets to dominate them…
The money-grubbing company feng recently released a short game that tells exactly this story.
ずっと前から女子でした She’s Been a Girl All Along
I figure feng has run out of things to do with the XXX no Seiiki series they did with Ryouka, so they started a new series—still the super cheap short budget type.
The setup is exactly what I described: the protagonist and the heroine (Kazama Hoshina) loved playing soccer together as kids, and she was really good. The protagonist thought she must be a boy. They got separated, then met again—he didn’t recognize her because she was a girl—then he did… and they started banging…
Don’t blame me for being blunt; that’s literally the plot. A boy you played with as a kid turns out to be a total babe when you grow up, and you can’t hold back—perfectly normal.
There’s also a third party: a blonde girl who also played with the heroine as a kid. She knows the heroine’s secret crush on the protagonist and stuff, but you can’t fuck her, so let’s ignore her.
The story is dead simple. At first the protagonist says he’s always oppressed by his older and younger sisters at home and hates women. The heroine says she’s not good with men either. But they keep running into each other on the train, and every time they end up rubbing tits in the same seat—gotta admit, it’s fate. They get to know each other and before long she says “ki ni naru” (I’m interested). No “I like you” or “I love you”—they just casually become a couple, then it’s bang bang bang.
For a porn game—and a short one at that—this thing actually has branches. Before you decide to bang the heroine, you can choose your attitude toward her: do you want to fuck her harder, or just want to be with her forever?
Actually that represents the two endings. The “be together forever” ending naturally leads to marriage.
The “fuck her harder” route has you developing her fetishes, starting all sorts of exhibitionism play. By the end it never says whether they’ll marry—feels more like fuck buddies.
Not much to say about this game. Its whole premise is “the protagonist meets someone from his childhood and discovers the boy he thought he knew is actually a big-titted beauty,” but clearly the game barely explores that—less than my intro above. A few lines and two flashbacks and it’s done. The BGM is crude, the whole game looks crude, side characters have no CV, background characters have no sprites, most CGs go to H scenes. But considering the 1890 yen price tag, all is forgiven. The game even has its own OP, sung by Natsuki Aoi—for under 2000 yen you’re basically buying a CD, not a bad deal!
Personally I still feel it’s a shame. I like the heroine’s art style, but the game has felt “broke” from start to finish. Too small a budget, so it had to be this kind of short budget title. If only it had more money.
Ultimately the game fulfills a common otaku fantasy: someone unremarkable you knew as a kid suddenly transforms into a big-titted girl who throws herself at you—kind of like a girl falling from the sky…
Bro as a kid, fuck buddy as an adult—one person, two uses. Just can’t help but love her, because she’s a girl.
But reality is cruel. The second-place girl from my elementary school who always wanted to beat me—she’s still short-haired, flat-chested, and macho as ever. Heard she went to America, rumors she became a lesbian…
Maybe she never wanted to be a girl from the start.
Worth mentioning: feng seems to have made enough money scamming with these short budget titles and finally learned to make a proper main release…
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